Wedded Bliss

Our day turned out so nice. We had intended on just going to the courthouse and being married there, just us two.  Well, where we live that is no longer done. We were given a list of names that would perform the ceremony. When we called the lady we got said she could come to our house to do it. What a neat idea! That way our family could witness and we could have a small get together. His parents were happy as was my mother. We were really casual, although not as casual as Bryan would have liked. He wanted people all in jeans and t-shirts and an ice cream cake! Seriously! Total man. We did not go that route. I got a small cake and bought matching dresses for the girls and a top for Bronson that coordinated. We both wore white tops and denim because given that I am pregnant I didn't have many options! His mother bought me a bouquet and a boutonniere for Bryan and some small decorations. We had such a nice time. I actually teared up a couple of times.  I am grateful for the memories. I feel even more connected and in love than before.

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After a lot of talking, both together and with friends and family we have decided to continue on with our journey. We are still going to pursue couples counseling as I am very protective and defensive given my previous relationship and this is his first time at all of this. He's stepped into not just a woman with baggage, but two girls with a lot of baggage also. Thankfully, Bronson was so small all he knows is Bryan as his daddy. Given that we have been together for a year and this is the first time he's ever even raised his voice to me says a lot. My first instinct is to run because of my past. We still have growing to do as a couple but we are both happy and love each other very much. A friend pointed out just how much has happened this year for us. We met, moved in together, got engaged and got pregnant all before our one year mark! We have been super busy! All of this is so fast that it causes stress even if we are happy with each other. We still have to house hunt and buy a bigger vehicle! It is all overwhelming. We are not having a big ceremony or anything. We hope to get away together for a couple of days before the baby is born and have a belated honeymoon once she has arrived. The lady that is going to marry us is actually coming to our house! How convenient is that? We will have close family over and that is it. So onward we go!

Postponed

I am postponing the marriage. I say marriage because we aren't having a real ceremony, well weren't is more appropriate. After getting our marriage license and buying my wedding band yesterday I got a peek of Bryan's true colors and it scared me. He lost his temper and was extremely disrespectful and hurtful not only to me, but in front of my kids and in public. I've already gone down that road and will not do it again. Since we have a child on the way and my two youngest love him I am willing to try pre-marital counseling first. If things don't improve then I'll deal with that when it happens. Right now the only reason I see to go through with it is to prevent having to explain to his family, and that is no reason to marry someone. I guess his best friend was right when he said that Bryan would run me off. If this offends, I hate it. My blog, my life, my opinions.